There are two Ninis. Either Ninis who is really her, and Ninis as what she appeared to be.
Frankly, I'm comfortable being either of them. There are circumstances when I could switch in front of particular people. It's not that the statement 'Ninis as what she appeared to be' means I was faking. No, I wasn't. It's just... in this new school I realize I was more comfortable and confident with myself. I have some ways to face problems and I may not show it with stating argument or such (stating argument is one of what Smansa student do), but I feel it inside.
In Smansa, in this new life, new place, new people, those sides of my life balance. It's unbelievable, especially when I remembered this blogpost I wrote last year. It actually happened! :)